Funny Bunny

Hey y'all.

So well just get straight into today's topic. It's one I haven't hit on in a while. Friends. Since the last time this subject appeared, my whole friend dynamic has shifted. I have great friends and I couldn't be more happy with them. Always there when I need them and having absolutely some of the CRAZIEST conversations that I have had in my life. But I love having them. It's amazing how much having these wonderful ladies in my life has changed me. I have opened myself up to so many things. I have also never eaten so much Chinese buffet food before in my life. But with that comes an awesome feeling like no matter what someone has my back. I'm sure you ladies know who you are and all I can say is... You all ROCK and I can't thank you enough for all the things you do. Whether it be a dinner as a group or just one on one. Hanging out at whoever's house we end up at, or just texting each other throughout the day to check on one another. I appreciate knowing that there's always an interesting conversation to be had when we are together. I could list the topics but they can get graphic and require Google a lot of the time. But, having the challenging aspect of talks with you all gives me hope for humanity, knowing that the offspring that we create will be as intelligent as well are. Even if we aren't the brightest bulbs, we aren't daft and we can hold our own when it comes to topics and not running out of stuff to talk about very often. It's great and I thank God every single day that he sent you all into my life.

I must say how proud of Joey Logano I am for keeping his nose clean when all this stuff keeps happening to his teammate. It's good to see how grown up he has become over the time he has been in the sport. Not to mention all the wins he has had this year!  So keep it up and show them all who the champ actually is!!!!

Started a second job on Tuesday and I'm thinking I need new shoes. My feet kill! I haven't been in retail in over a year and a half, I honestly forgot how taxing it is on the back and feet. I guess this will be an interesting next couple months and after if I get offered a permanent position after the holidays. Fingers crossed. I need the money.

                                   ❤ Until Next Time

Phone

So I started playing Game of War Fire Age, and let me tell you. I have no idea what is so interesting about the thing, but it's kinda my new thing. Because we all know everyone had that one game they favor on their phone regardless how long you spend on Facebook or Twitter or Snapchat.

The only thing I found annoying was the alliances I were in were not all that great, and honestly my plan from the beginning was to break free and create my own. So (ltj)Chico Mambo 22 was born. Hopefully I'm able to get members and create one of the best alliances there is.

In other news Charlotte race is this evening Joey Logano not doing what I would like to see, but for winning last week at Kansas he has locked his slot for the next bracket of the Chase. Congrats Joey. Words can not express how freaking proud I am of him and his team this year. He is making wonderful strides and his team has backed him all the way. If he keeps I this performance up he will be there at the end. Which I can say as a fan of Joey since the being of his Sprint cup career, this has shown all the negative people that have chastised me for being a fan of him since the beginning what I was talking about when I said they didn't give him his nickname "Sliced Bread" for nothing.

                                Until Next Time <3

21

I am 21 years old and have been battling with depression for 9 yrs.
I am 21 years old and I have had a stroke.
I am 21 years old and I have graduated high school.
I am 21 years old and I have a driver's license.
I am 21 years old and I have a little trouble with math and science as an after effect of my stroke.
I am 21 years old and I have ADD.
I am 21 years old and I have a physical disability.
I am 21 years old and I have had not one but two very good jobs.
I am 21 years old and I have aspirations.
I am 21 years old and I dreams.
I am 21 years old and I have to wear glasses so I can actually see well.
I am 21 years old and was told that  since I have a disability that might be in my interest to live in a home for mentally and physically challenged individuals.

I am 21 years old and despite some of the things listed above I AM AN INDEPENDENT PERSON. I have grown up knowing that although I am a little different I should never let that stop me from going after what I want. No matter what I am who I am, and I would get the chance to be as normal as I can be. I would get the chance to go to college when I was ready. I would get the chance to date. I would get the chance to get engaged, married, and have babies if I wanted. I would get to cook myself food and if I decided that I wanted to eat with my left hand I could. My drink would go in sippy cup just so I wouldn't spill it all over myself, and someone would sit there with me so I wouldn't be alone and encourage me that I could do the best thing for me (finishing a meal with the hand I was told I would never be able to use.)  And with one phone call all of the would/could/should get to do could just disappear. I sure as heck hope not. Because even if there was nothing else I had left at least I'd have my independence.

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Thin Ice

Well I can officially say I've had a first. I yelled at one of my best friends. It was one of those things that I don't regret and it actually made me feel better. She called me saying that she had exciting news and that she had to wait til tomorrow to tell me. We have been through this more than once and lately it has been on my last nerve. For as long as we have known either she has not had a vacancy in the boyfriend department for longer than maybe a month. Recently even got engaged. I'm truly happy for her but, she called me and had the audacity to say: "Everyone around me is getting engaged and having babies. I just want that too." To which I responded with. "Excuse me. But if you haven't noticed you have a ring on your finger and you are going to complain to me? " I don't think so. All because she is worried she can't have a baby. Honey, I knew a long time ago chances are slim to none I will have children, and being as I have been in the single boat for as long as I've been allowed to date I am the wrong person to be talking to but still she went on.

Lesson for the day here folks. Really think about who you spill your guts to and their situation before you even open your mouth. Once or twice is ok but when it hits upwards of 15 and 20 and you still keep going expect even the most caring and loving, most unselfish person to lose their cool.

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The Big Decision

The time has come to choose a school and get my career in motion. Over the last week I have started that process and am excited about my future. I spoke with an admissions advisor at WVJC and really like the idea of going there. But, for the sake of my family I am looking at South University in Savannah, although I have been unable to reach the advisor there right now.

Right now without knowing what South has to offer but having also looked at Kaplan and if I had to choose between that and WVJC. I would choose the ladder. The class schedule is something I need and communication with teachers/professors is something they expect and that's something I want to do. Also you have to campus for classes and since I hate the thought of online classes that is a great fit for me. I will be making my decision by the 1st week in June and I am extremely excited to finally come to a decision and make my life move in the right direction. 

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When I'm Gone.

Been super busy its kinda unreal. My schedule is super cramped right now. Trying to get things in order and just live a decent life, keep time in my schedule straight so I have time to spend with those who I care about. It's hard!!! But, doing a good job or at least I think so.

Over the weekend I managed to have a complete meltdown and what's bugging me is something that has managed to bother me for YEARS.  I have the philosophy that I need to live my life to the fullest so that if anything were to happen I can say I actually accomplished something. As I think about it though I wonder if I truly have done so. Sure, I've done the general things like graduate high school and I've had a job for the last 3 years, and I technically I own my car. But really most people have done at least 1 of those things on that list. But are those things that people are going to remember? Not really.

I got kicked out of college because I was to young to realize how important a degree actually is. Now I know how important going to college is and I want to go, just don't have the resources to do that at the present time. I came to the realization that even though I want to be an event planner, for me to that I would need a lot of things that I don't have to get a business off the ground. I will get my certification and probably do that on the side. With all the trouble my sister has run into the last couple years its helped me come to the decision that becoming a paralegal would be a career that would be good for me and I would be good at. So the plan is to get a computer and choose a school and get a degree, and work as a criminal paralegal. I'm happy with that goal and know if I set my mind to that I will accomplish that goal.

I've never had a relationship, but that really doesn't matter to me. I really could care less about that I'm not really in a state where I can truly be ready to handle a relationship. I change my mind to much and get bored by people to easily. But, it still bothers me that I'll be 21 in September and have been out of high school almost 3 yrs. and have only had negative after negative experiences with "men". I know I'll get there one day when I'm ready but when people I graduated with are getting engaged and having babies it really makes me wonder how long is it going to take for me to be ready? I'm not sure. Not sure that I'll ever know until the time comes.

                         Until Next Time. <3

New Phone

1st thing first.  I am sorry for not writing for so long.  I was dealing with not having a computer and a phone that had no storage space at all. It was a complete nightmare.  But today I was able to upgrade my phone. So far I like it a lot better. There is more room and can now but all the apps that I have missed so much for the last year or so. I use to have to play with the space so I could download the apps then put the one I deleted back on. It was a huge mess. I have a feeling that with a shit ton more storage I will not have that problem. Will write again soon, when its not almost midnight and I have to work in the morning.

                       Until Next Time <3