Strength of Billions

Strength. Where in the world does it come from and when do you reach the point where you have none left? They say God doesn't give you more than you can handle. But in all reality is that truly the case? Not really.

Take for example where I question whether or not that is true. There is a negative constant in my life that no matter how hard I try and shake him he never leaves. If he does its only for a little while. He always come back at my most vulnerable times and makes things that are so out of character for me seem like it would be okay. I don't think that he knows that I'm vulnerable but I just question why he finds his way back when I am. It's confusing. I know what he wants is wrong but at the same time he makes it seem like it would be so fun.

I'm already so stretched thin when it comes to the other things in life that I have to manage to re-adjust the use of strength to fight the urge to just agree, give in and do something that no matter who you are and where you sit in life is wrong. I know it. He knows it. But still yet wants to cheat and lie and keep everything a secret on top of it all. That to me takes a lot of stupidity. He uses the "oh it'll be fun", or "This isn't lying or cheating" Well we all know that if you have to keep it a secret like we are in kindergarten and keeping things from friends or Mommy and Daddy. It's wrong! Majorly. So to all of those who think that manipulation is all fine and dandy. Think again. 

We all think God may only give us what we can handle, but when you don't have strength left and/or the people in your life like I do to help evaluate where the strength needs to go and you break under the peer pressure or whatever other pressures that there are in life. Know that the person or thing that is doing whatever it is to break you they are in the wrong and there is no reason to feel any kind of guilt or negative feeling that you may feel. Go to someone and talk about things. Talking helps. Let it all out and be heard. When you have nothing left and feel beat and broken know that there are people out there to listen and you will be heard. Be aware of the inner thought and feelings you are having. Hiding them doesn't help anyone and takes most of the strength we have. So, just know that no matter what someone is there for you, to help you, to hear you, and to make the strength we all have work to our advantage. 

                                              Until Next Time <3