That down in the dumps feeling you get when your day was really bad. Really pissy and your head feels like its about to explode. That has been the kind of day that my day has been today.
I just can't believe why everything and I mean EVERYTHING is bugging the shit out of me. Especially today. I don't even know what's really bugging me. But I have an idea. It's really sad to think that wanting a relationship and being around someone who you want to be in a relationship with was just not a good idea from the get go. I wanted to make this person appreciate life and see all the good things that it has to offer. Because from where he sits that is just not happening for him. I honestly have no idea what's going to happen between him amd myself but I do know that as of right now I'm giving up. Giving up on him and trying to help people see the better versions of themselves. Its a waste of time if they don't want to be a better person and I put so much energy into trying I have no energy left to help myself grow. All I want is to wake up in the morning and know that my day is going to be full of happiness and love. And go to bed at night knowing the same thing and on top of that not to have the empty loneliness that follows me on a daily basis. Its puts to much strain on my soul, and helps contribute to my frustration and anger. I'm tired of being that person. I'm tired of the aching empty feeling. I want to be happy Bre who has only poked through a few times in the last month and a half.
Until Next Time
