Life lately for me has been hectic and I just haven't had time to blog. All I can say to that is I'm sorry. What has kept me from blogging are the little things. I work more hours than I can count or at least thats how I feel.
I don't even really remember the last time I filled ya'll in on what's goingon in my life so I'll just go with the flow and fill you in on what I remember.
First thing first.. Congratulations to Joey Logano the #20 Home Depot driver. He won at Pocono and it was the first race he won fair and square no rain delay. I am so proud of him and his team. Even though I didn't get to see him win, when I found out I literally started jumping for joy.
Next up, my cousin Kati came to visit just last week and unfortunately I had to work on one of the days she was here we still managed to have a total blast like we always do when we're together. We been best friends since we were toddlers and probably will be for the rest of our lives. While she was here we went out to a small town and went to a fair. We went for a soccer derby and she experienced her first Iowa storm which to me was really funny. Then after that was the day I worked and I let her borrow my car, I thought she would hate driving but oh gosh was I wrong she wanted to keep it!!! The next day she had to go back to the other town she was going to stay in with another friend that lives in Iowa and I took it upon myself to take her there. But did I get to drive her up there? NO WAY!! She had to drive which was fine with me. As we drove we listened to Disney songs just like we did when we were kids.
And last but not least, for abouth the last month or so my ankle would just swell up and go away but as soon as I would wake the pain would just start again. It got to the point were I couldn't take the pain anymore and ended up going to the hospital and getting x-rays because I seriously thought my foot was broken. It ended up being just a sprain and they gave me an aircast that I have to wear and goodness does that thing just irritate my leg and with the heat its just makes it worse. but I can't wait for two weeks when I can stop wearing the torture device.
Until Next Time
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Can you say WEIRD??
Gosh I can't believe its been a whole week since I posted. Time flies when your having fun or just trying to keep your head from exploding from the neck because of dumb stuff. This week has been filled to the brim with just so much and I'm so psyched to share the juicy detail, so here goes nothing...
So we all know that there are two guys that I've been "talking" to or maybe that's just something I think I mentioned but never actually did. But anyways, they both appeared mid to late May and I have been having the worst time trying to choose which one would be the better fit into my life and I think I wrote about this last time but can I just say between then and now I have managed a complete 180. At first I was going with the guy from about a hour away and was determined to make that work but the other just kinda snuck up on me. He just out of the blue asked me to hang out. Of course I think that as in any other situation its important to give every option an even chance so I agreed. The first time we met up was a total disaster and I take full responsibility for that and I'm leaving it at that. So after the disaster I decided that even though I was holding out that I would just give this guy another shot so that it was fair when I made my decision. So I asked him if he wanted to hang out on Friday. He said yes and we made plans to go to a really great cupcake place then out to dinner.
Unfortunately the cupcake place closed like 10 minutes before we got there so we just went straight to dinner. It was totally not what I was expecting at all. There was no long pauses and I felt really comfortable talking to him. Which was awesome because all the way there I had the worst feeling in the pit of my stomach and felt that this wasn't what I wanted. I thought I might have ruined it though when I started talking about all the foods you can actually find animal parts in and was like a little embarrassed but it wasn't that bad he took that lightly and the rest of the meal went off without any more dead animal talk thankfully. I was glad that he was genuinely interested in what I had to say and didn't just pretend to care.
After dinner we parted ways and I went home, and this is were the strange sets in. My sister wanted ice cream from Dairy Queen so I decided I would be a nice sister and take her. Also. I was craving a Blizzard so that was a plus side to this arrangement for me too. I took her to the one down town and they only accept cash so I had to drive to the one all the way across town to the one that I go to frequently.We were in the drive-thru and I'm in front of the speaker machine and a voice comes over it and for a second I freeze. I know that voice its so familiar to me and at that second I would've put money on who was on the other end taking the order. Sure enough that voice was attached to the exact person I knew it would be. The guy I had a total crush on my Senior year of high school. I just thought it was funny that he would be the one to be there taking the order after the great time I had just had and it was just a coincidence. So I really wasn't that phased by the whole thing I just got the ice cream had a decent how have you been I haven't seen you in a year type conversation and went on my merry way. I made a last second decision to go a different way home than I normally do when I leave there. I did a backtrack type deal and as I was headed to where I needed to turn and saw a sign for a garage sale and to most of you that is no big deal. But to me this address meant something I'd been there a few years back on Halloween probably my sophmore year of high school and my sister went up to the door and knocked the person that answered was the guy from my world history class(which was usually set aside for juniors and seniors, but since I moved that year and the school I was going to before that had no open spots in a freshman course I was stuck in a sophmore one. So that year I was going to class with the older kids that were like 18 and I was only 14.) Needless to say the fact that I just a little giddy schoolgirl back then I crushed hard on this one guy. And, with that one I never hid the fact that I liked him it was out there in the open for everyone to see. Although, I'm not sure he ever realized it. Those two things were just weird to see on the same night that I had my first "date" type of event. The guys that involved in those two things were a big part of how I deal with guys I talk to now. But I just pushed it aside as something weird and was attempting to move on.
Until today...
I worked today and it was a pretty normal day. It was about 15 minutes before my shift was up and I had a customer come through my line I took one look at him and I knew exactly who he was. The very first guy I ever thought about being in a relationship with, well it wasn't him standing there but it was his father. And at that exact second I knew that those three things happening so close after that dinner was no mere coincidence it was fate. Now I don't know what you all as my readers think about all the whole things happen for a reason thing. But I myself believe whole-heartedly in it and I know that these events were the universe telling to wake up smell the coffee, realize your past mistakes and don't you dare make them again. So, I think I'm going to side with the universe on this one and actually see this through and not cut it off like I have in the past when I got scared or bored.(Not bored with this guy, just a little scared.) I'm going to try and see this through and hopefully I end up a happy camper in the end.
F.Y.I. The other guy that I was talking to lets just say I asked him if he was still interested in meeting up he said yeah and I haven't heard from him since. That was two and a half weeks ago. Thank God I made the decision I did or I think I would've been waiting on someone who obviously isn't interested in me and may have passed up someone who actually might be.
Until Next Time
So we all know that there are two guys that I've been "talking" to or maybe that's just something I think I mentioned but never actually did. But anyways, they both appeared mid to late May and I have been having the worst time trying to choose which one would be the better fit into my life and I think I wrote about this last time but can I just say between then and now I have managed a complete 180. At first I was going with the guy from about a hour away and was determined to make that work but the other just kinda snuck up on me. He just out of the blue asked me to hang out. Of course I think that as in any other situation its important to give every option an even chance so I agreed. The first time we met up was a total disaster and I take full responsibility for that and I'm leaving it at that. So after the disaster I decided that even though I was holding out that I would just give this guy another shot so that it was fair when I made my decision. So I asked him if he wanted to hang out on Friday. He said yes and we made plans to go to a really great cupcake place then out to dinner.
Unfortunately the cupcake place closed like 10 minutes before we got there so we just went straight to dinner. It was totally not what I was expecting at all. There was no long pauses and I felt really comfortable talking to him. Which was awesome because all the way there I had the worst feeling in the pit of my stomach and felt that this wasn't what I wanted. I thought I might have ruined it though when I started talking about all the foods you can actually find animal parts in and was like a little embarrassed but it wasn't that bad he took that lightly and the rest of the meal went off without any more dead animal talk thankfully. I was glad that he was genuinely interested in what I had to say and didn't just pretend to care.
After dinner we parted ways and I went home, and this is were the strange sets in. My sister wanted ice cream from Dairy Queen so I decided I would be a nice sister and take her. Also. I was craving a Blizzard so that was a plus side to this arrangement for me too. I took her to the one down town and they only accept cash so I had to drive to the one all the way across town to the one that I go to frequently.We were in the drive-thru and I'm in front of the speaker machine and a voice comes over it and for a second I freeze. I know that voice its so familiar to me and at that second I would've put money on who was on the other end taking the order. Sure enough that voice was attached to the exact person I knew it would be. The guy I had a total crush on my Senior year of high school. I just thought it was funny that he would be the one to be there taking the order after the great time I had just had and it was just a coincidence. So I really wasn't that phased by the whole thing I just got the ice cream had a decent how have you been I haven't seen you in a year type conversation and went on my merry way. I made a last second decision to go a different way home than I normally do when I leave there. I did a backtrack type deal and as I was headed to where I needed to turn and saw a sign for a garage sale and to most of you that is no big deal. But to me this address meant something I'd been there a few years back on Halloween probably my sophmore year of high school and my sister went up to the door and knocked the person that answered was the guy from my world history class(which was usually set aside for juniors and seniors, but since I moved that year and the school I was going to before that had no open spots in a freshman course I was stuck in a sophmore one. So that year I was going to class with the older kids that were like 18 and I was only 14.) Needless to say the fact that I just a little giddy schoolgirl back then I crushed hard on this one guy. And, with that one I never hid the fact that I liked him it was out there in the open for everyone to see. Although, I'm not sure he ever realized it. Those two things were just weird to see on the same night that I had my first "date" type of event. The guys that involved in those two things were a big part of how I deal with guys I talk to now. But I just pushed it aside as something weird and was attempting to move on.
Until today...
I worked today and it was a pretty normal day. It was about 15 minutes before my shift was up and I had a customer come through my line I took one look at him and I knew exactly who he was. The very first guy I ever thought about being in a relationship with, well it wasn't him standing there but it was his father. And at that exact second I knew that those three things happening so close after that dinner was no mere coincidence it was fate. Now I don't know what you all as my readers think about all the whole things happen for a reason thing. But I myself believe whole-heartedly in it and I know that these events were the universe telling to wake up smell the coffee, realize your past mistakes and don't you dare make them again. So, I think I'm going to side with the universe on this one and actually see this through and not cut it off like I have in the past when I got scared or bored.(Not bored with this guy, just a little scared.) I'm going to try and see this through and hopefully I end up a happy camper in the end.
F.Y.I. The other guy that I was talking to lets just say I asked him if he was still interested in meeting up he said yeah and I haven't heard from him since. That was two and a half weeks ago. Thank God I made the decision I did or I think I would've been waiting on someone who obviously isn't interested in me and may have passed up someone who actually might be.
Until Next Time
Friday, June 1, 2012
What I've learned when it comes to what you want...
Long time since I posted. I just want you all to know that I've been working a lot and really haven't had much time to write. But I finally got some time and I'm using it to let you all know that life right now is a little bit complicated for me. While, this is something I totally brought on myself and thought for awhile that this might actually be what I wanted, the thing is that now that I have what I wanted I'm not enjoying this like I planned.
Growing up I was the shy social butterfly if that makes any sense. I had my little group of friends and we did our thing. When it came down to it most of the time we liked the same guy and wow did that cause ruffles. Most if not all the time, the alpha female personality (not me) would get the attention we all wanted. That left me kinda hurt and I tended to struggle with that self image thing. Thankfully today that has faded and only comes back every once in a while. So needless to say it got to the point where all I wanted was the attention that my friends got from guys. I never did anything drastic and most of the time faded to the background. I watched my friends get the guys every time and patiently waited my turn.
Waited all through middle school and high school. Nothing ever happened now, all of a sudden it's like I have attention coming from every direction. At first I was so excited and was telling all my friends that I had finally started what they like to call "talking" to guys then more guys showed interest. It started getting really old really fast.
And. Now that I think I finally found one that will work well with the kind of relationship I want and mesh with my family and get along with my friends, understand my views, and doesn't mind the lifestyle I choose to live (vegetarian). All these boys (which is exactly what they are) start to show interest. I steer them away but they just don't get it.
So I guess after this whole let out of emotions. What I want to get across is that it's important to go after what you want and that letting people get in the way is not the best thing. If they happen to have the spotlight a lot and you can't seem to get a hold of it, create your own. It's not a simple task but try because it's important for everyone to shine you'll feel better about you. I don't care if it's with boys or school or whatever else there is in this world. Don't let what happen to me happen to you. But, also realize that getting what you what isn't always a good thing. So, I hope my venting and what I've learned can help you.
Until Next Time
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