CONGRATS!!!!!!

Well as I am writing this it is officially December 22... Yahoo :)


Lots of stuff going on in my life. I finally after three months of the guy I was interested in lying to me I decided I had enough and am now in the stage of moving on and realizing that he came into my life to teach me something and he came into it to teach me that no matter what a guy/man/little boy should never lie to a girl like that and it won't be tolerated going forward.

Moving out has been the best/worst thing ever. That I will and plan to go into more detail about here soon, but I'm just trying to crank out a quick blog to let and you all know I'm still here and that I've got some big news that I plan to share after the first of the year. It's not the best news and want you all to enjoy your holidays before I drop the news.


So I hope everyone has a good holiday season and enjoy the time with family and friends. I know I will be.




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Love... does it truly exsist?

Love. What is it exactly?
It's waking up in the morning next your favorite person in the world. Its seeing a smile on baby's face. It's seeing your friends light up when you walk into a room. It's laughing at somebody stupid jokes just so they know that you care. Love is so many different things so many different people it's amazing the definition of love. But what really is love? The textbook definition. Love is described two different ways in the dictionary. The first as a noun, which is an intense feeling of deep affection. The second is the sexual attraction between 2 people. But in real honesty what do you think of when you think of love? do you really think about the sexual part of it or is it something much deeper.
The pull you have towards someone just to be around them to know that they care about you. And what happens when a person breaks what you have that special bond even if it's not felt between both people. In recent days it has come to my attention that what I thought was love doesn't exist in my life it's just a bunch of b*******. It was fake all of it every single piece of it so what do I do now do I try to move on? Do I realize the person I've spent so much time on is a liar, a cheater, and a coward of course I do. I realize this every single day but I fell in love with this person or so I thought I did. This so called man is so pathetic he has ruined my perspective on love. I don't even think if the right guy came along my perspective would change at all. That's how damaged he's made me. I feel broken, I feel hurt, I feel confused, but most of all I feel unimportant. All I asked for was the truth and he couldn't even give that to me. You're probably wondering what the hell I'm talking about. Well I'm talking about the guy that is mentioned in so many different other blogs. My magic on a Saturday night man. If I talked about him so highly in the past what made me change my mind. I'm pretty sure that's all you're wondering right now. Right? Well here we go.. Here's the big story about 3 months ago right after the Saturday night incident I went to work the next day and was talking to a coworker. I was telling her about the night with this guy and she looked at me and she said did you know his ex is pregnant. Of course I had no idea and I really didn't want to believe her at first. So I asked him about it he said I ain't got no baby on the way who told you that and why are you believing it. So I let it go and time passed. Then I was sitting in my apartment last night just looking on Facebook and I see a status update congratulating this guy on the birth of his daughter. I flipped out. I was lied to. All I wanted was honesty. lf I knew the girls pregnant was that going to change my mind. Maybe. He said they weren't together. But do I even believe that not really thinking about the whole thing just makes me so upset. Of course some of the blame go to me because I was stupid enough to believe him. But really he couldn't tell the truth. He couldn't be the least bit honest with me. He had to try to get with me all while his girlfriend was having a child. Of course he said there was no trying but there was plenty of it on my end. All I wanted was love and attention preferbly his.
But now that everything's happen I don't even know if I'll get that from somebody worthy enough of mine. My love is great or at least it was. I don't know what it will be like anymore. I know my perspective has changed. But what does that mean for the love that I have inside of me to give to someone else has it changed too?
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Til the 22

You know as long as I long as I've been writing I don't think i ever blogged about my passion. Nascar. Its strange to think about honestly, the fact that if you look back you see quite a few hockey blogs. Well now comes the time when I will write about the driver that brought me into the sport and the sport that has had my heart since I was a freshman in high school.
Nascar, the American sport. In my opinion one of the the best sports out there. Who doesn't love watching guys drive around going speeds we only wish we could go on the highway. And as we hit the end of the of season and the last race which was this afternoon. I must say goodbye to the Home Depot race team and hello to the Pennzoil race team. Because we all know who my favorite driver is. Joey Logano. Earlier in the year, Home Depot decided to drop Joey as their driver and pick up Matt Kenseth. Not the best choice but more power to them really. And not to long after that Nascar announced that Joey would drive a Penske car. I was excited for Joey to have a ride for next year and am honestly thrilled that I won't be a driverless fan come February. The only thing that really jerks my chain and really I've said it before and I'll say it a million more times, until somebody realizes that I was right. Joey was a winner from the start all they had to do was give him the right equipment and a good team (crew chief, pit crew, engineers) and he could've been in the winners circle week after week. And the biggest mistake that I think JGR made was not getting rid of Zippy sooner than they did. He was accustomed to working with a winning seasoned veteran, not a 19 year old rookie. I knew this was true from the start, but when I started seeing the tension it was apparent I was right. But I don't really want to bash anyone. So I'll leave my post at this, to everyone who said that Joey couldn't win he did this year with Joe Gibbs and will plenty more times with Penske. Good luck to Joey in the off season addjusting to the new shop and all the new people and equipment, I am behind him 100% and wish him nothing but good things in the upcoming season. Can't wait for the ninety some days left until Daytona.

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Fed up

Wow almost a month since I posted i can't believe that tomorrow I will finally be moving into an apartment. It feels good knowing that I'm not going to have to worry about where I'm sleeping at the end of the day. I'll finally come home to my own bed and that in and of it self I can't wait for. I have been elated these past few days it is seriously unreal. But, and we all knew it was coming because that's just how my life is and its kinda sad because all I want is to know that at the end of the day I get to be happy. And with the argument I so stubbornly started yesterday it didn't happen. For the last couple of months i have been desperately trying to reconnect and also start a relationship with a guy that i worked with and he quit working from the store early in the year. Of course i liked him back then and after he quit i started to slowly get over him and then in August he messaged me and started a conversation with me. At first i tried my hardest to be so standoffish because i didn't want to fall for him again. But he turned that charm on me and once again i was caught up in his web and found myself wanting to see him and be around him again, just to get a taste of his strange and sarcastic humor that I enjoyed so much. Them came the night that i finally saw him for the first time in a while(for that experience see the magic of a Saturday night blog). Well not exactly there was the time i saw him outside of the place where i get pedicures and nothing really happened then because he was working and i was still trying not to fall for him...again. then after that night since then i've seen him only one other time and it was again in the front seat of my car and this time there was no kissing no nothing. Just me stupidly saying that i was going to win like i was playing his game. When in reality im playing my own game against his heart and right now I'm losing. There's a point to this i swear...

So about a month ago i got kicked out of my parents house and all i choose to remember about that night is my friend calling him for me because i was afraid that if he picked up that i would just start crying with no stop. He never answered, and the next day i asked him why and got the typical response anyone would give i didn't know the number so I didn't pick up.

I told him what was going on and he asked if I was ok and if I had a place to stay. I told him the truth and he seemed genuinely concerned about me, which I appreciated and still do. So since he knew about the whole thing with my parents and everything I asked him to help me move once I found a place to live. He said maybe and wanted to know what he would get out of it. I told that we would talk about it but it wasn't going to be anything huge or drastic. So yesterday when i texted him that i was moving tomorrow he said he couldn't because he had class. I understand how important school is to him so i didn't ask him to skip class or anything and said that was fine like meant to be moody and a little understanding at the same time. And he totally blew it out of proportion and said something about not needing permission and stuff then I lost it and snapped and told him everything that has been bugging me and how him being there meant something to me. So i don't know whats going to happen tomorrow if he'll show up or not after reading that text. I don't think so... and I don't even know if i even want him there to help now that he's made me feel so unimportant and like he and i aren't even friends anymore even after it came out of his mouth that we are. I've reached my breaking point with him and if things don't change I won't hesitate to pull the last straw...

So wish me luck for tomorrow and pray i don't hurt myself. And that my sister, her big sister, and myself have a blast at the Breaking Dawn premiere tomorrow night.

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Pray....

Hectic. That describes my life right now and there really isn't another way to put it. My life is falling apart around me and somehow I'm managing to hold myself together enough to put on a big gigantic act for mostly everyone thats in my life. There are only two people that really know the extent to how bad my life is right now and they are my best guy friend who is like my older brother and one of my really close friends. I'm glad that those two let me confide in them or I'd be a total wreck and my big show might be impossible to put on. I'm not ready to share with you all how bad things actually are yet but after things start to turn around I will explain everything. The thing I need from you all right now is positive thoughts and prayers sent my way, that way I can get everything together and get my life. That things with my family gets better and that I can start my new chapter soon. Thank you all in advance for the thoughts and prayers. I appreciate them more than you know.


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Update Blog Oct 15&16

Hey all! You all know that my life has been an up and down roller coaster ride as of late. Very busy. Battles in my personal life and my love life right now is down the tubes. Even though we all know I want that to change. But anyways... I just thought I'd do an all over update today while I have some downtime waiting for a friend.
So, a while back I wrote a few blogs on Lyric and Elizabeth. I just want y'all to know that they have still not been found but as far as I know the authorities are still looking for them and believe that they are are alive. So keep them and their families in your thoughts and prayers as the holidays are just around the corner and I would hate to see them not be able to be with their families at such a wonderful time of the year.


I don't know if y'all want an update on my love life, but I'm gonna give it to you anyways. They guy that created my magic on Saturday a few weeks ago is still around but not as much as I'd like him to be. We talk/text almost every day which is nice but I want more from him than that. I want to be around him and see him more than I was before and definately more than I am now. He's just so all over the place that its hard to get a solid read on him most of the time. Like that clear as day feeling that the person wants you around. Somedays I get the feeling then other days I'm frozen out and I just can't figure out why. It's irritating as hell and somedays I just want to just shout at him to make up his mind, I'm not a thing that can be played with and toyed with. We all know it happens with at least one guy or another. But the fact that he's there to help me with the battles between my family and myself is really nice and I'm glad that he understands my situation and I'm not having to explain it to him like I would if I was talking to someone else.

And the last thing I want to touch on today is something my mom has said to me recently and the truth and the lie behind it all... Friends come and go but family is forever. We've all heard this saying or something similair at least once in our lives and most of the time we think about how true or false the statement is. There is no inbetween, or is there? Because if you really think about it especially in the American culture there are people who become so close with their friends that they are literally their extended family and they go and do things with them as a family and they grow close to each other and treat one another like their actual family. I have people in my life like that. We are very close, do a lot of things together, talk all the time, spend so much time together that its hard to keep track. I know that it may not sound like the best thing in the world but when you realize what I have in the last few months then you should come to understand where the lie comes from in this statement and that there is little to no truth that is actually there. But, anyways I've got to get this apartment search I started finished so.....
                        

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C.M.M.

<p>Holy moly! Its been forever. I've been really busy and can tell y'all that I'm now 19 yrs old and its been about a week since then and haven't even had a chance to celebrate yet. Hoping I'll make it to the All American Rejects, Boys Like Girls, The Ready Set concert to celebrate but Idk if that will happen. <br>
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So things that have happened in the last month...

Still haven't had anything new with the Lyric and Elizabeth case but they think video recordings from earlier in the day and to my understanding even that week may help with finding the girls so keep doing what  you're doing and they will be found.

I did my very first wedding and I can't believe how well it went. I'm so glad I chose event planning as my career. Its something I think I can enjoy for a long time to come.

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Interesting topic

<p>Ok hey y'all its been a few days and I've been trying really hard to find something really good to talk about and I've finally got it.</p>
<p>WARNING: I am about to go on a rant so if you are under the age of 14, or you don't want to read it then I suggest you just go to Facebook or whatever else you were doing before you dropped by. Better luck next time.</p>
<p>So now that I've put that out there let's get started.</p>
<p>Today I want to just want to get some things off my chest and I want every single one of you girls reading this to take what I'm about to say to heart.</p>
<p>We all know that as you grow up and the hormones kick in, boys no longer have cooties. They become the one thing that won't leave leave our minds. (as for any LBGTQ, substitute guy in here for your preference.) As time goes on the guys start to notice and we're thrilled. But I'll tell you what after their hormones kick in it seems that most guys all they want is sex or something that related to it. I mean there is a statistic floating around that on average a male thinks about sex every 53 SECONDS. That's at least once a minute. A little excessive if you ask me. </p>
<p>This relates to what I'm getting at I promise. So here is my story. In the past six months alone I have been told that I am a prude twice. And for those of you who don't know what it means. Its someone easily shocked by matters dealing with sex or nudity. <br>
I'll be the first to tell you I'm no prude, and my friends will back me up. </p>
<p>If the definition of prude was, waiting to be in love before doing anything on the sexual spectrum. Then by all means call me a prude all you want. But it's not.

Girls this is where I want your full attention. If a guy ever tells you that you are a prude or any other name. Tells you that you're a child because having sex makes you an adult, asks you to prove them wrong by having sex. Any kind of sex. Before you're absolutely sure you are ready. It's ok to tell them no. They might be mad at first but I'm going to tell you in the long run they're going to gain respect for you. The one thing I tell myself every time this happens to me. I say to myself "You are beautiful just the way you are. Having sex doesn't make you grown up and if you do this for the wrong reasons it may come back in the long run as a bad thing. By not having sex until you're ready you are showing respect to yourself and the person that you fall in love with. Waiting is not a bad thing and you can be proud on the day your daughter asks you who the first person you had sex with was and you can tell her it was someone you loved very much. Regardless of whether it's her father or not I can almost guarantee she will just be proud of you." 

So, that's the end of my rant maybe next time I 'll discuss the male side but for now I'm finished. If you think I'm wrong fine take it as what you will this is my opinion and I stand by it.

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Thanks

So today at work was pretty hectic. More than any other day that I've been at the service desk. It seemed as though after my lunch I couldn't pull myself back together enough to be able to go solo for the rest of the evening. So tonights blog is basically a shout out to the six associates that helped me to be able to  finish my shift. Unfortunately, for many reasons I am not going to mention names. Even though I'd really like to, especially today. But, let's just say I had someone to call on when I needed help and he never left me stranded in the constant sea of customers. The cool one who is always doing the little extra stuff to make my job a lot less stressful and more entertaining. And so many others. I'm just so glad that our store is so tight knit we are like one big family. I've said it before and I know I'll say it at least fifty more times.

Thank you all for everything you all do. Not just for me but for everyone. You know they say time flies when your having fun and gosh is that the truth. I was talking to a few of the girls that I became really close with when I started and when I told them its been almost a year since I started they couldn't believe it. And honestly its even surprising to me how fast the time has gone by.

Well it's time for me to catch some zz's so...

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How I've been

Well just letting y'all know how I am. Its been very hectic these last few weeks.

My family and I had to make the very difficult decision to put my dog Charlie to sleep. He was just getting very old and we think he had cancer in his neck. So since then I really didn't feel like writing until today.

Other than that I just have been thinking about whether or not I should move back to West Virginia and live with my grandma again. Regardless of whether or not I move in with her, stay with my parents, move in with a friend, or my cousin I've still got a move ahead of me.  Of course two options involve transfers for my job, and that's something I've been heavily considering if I really want to do or not.

Another thing I wanted to tell you about is that possibly by my birthday I will have my first tattoo. I'm so excited and I just really can't wait I'm sure there will be a blog to go with that experience along with tons if pictures. So hopefully some of you are as excited as I am for that.

And last but not least an update on the missing girls. Lyric and Elizabeth have still not been  found. And no new developments have come about to my knowledge. On Wednesday, Elizabeth turned 9 and a bunch of people got together and made cupcakes for all the businesses that donated during the search, which I must say is a really creative way to say thank you and I know that a lot of people enjoyed the wonderful cupcakes.
Just a reminder keep praying sending good vibes  or whatever it is that you all do. Turn you porch lights on, wear pink and if you've got a tree or a telephone pole or something in your yard tie a pink ribbon around if you want. My town is full of them. Help your town be to. If you'd like to help any other way. Leave it in the comments or send me an email. My email should be listed on my profile.

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Update on Lyric and Elizabeth

After my last post I'm not sure how many of you looked at the media coverage that has been brought out on Lyric and Elizabeth but there has been some crazy that I've seen and read.

The first is that they found some kind of evidence regarding the case. But, other than that there is not that much to go on. We as the public don't know what it is. And to be totally honest with you I'm not sure if I want to know. And on top of that they have finally finished the search of the lake where the girls were last seen and are finally labeling this an abduction, which is something that we've been waiting for for over a week.

The second thing is that it has been brought out in the media that Lyric's farther has a really bad criminal history regarding meth and that alone has bought itself some awful rumors.  Let me just say that it is my own opinion that in this case that the rumors about Lyric's father and family in general are really uncalled for. It doesn't matter if the criminal history of a person comes into play when it comes finding these girls, that is her dad and no matter what I'm sure he loves his daughter very much and just wants her home. So, just stop.

And the last thing that I want to touch on  this evening is that the investigators think that these girls are ALIVE!! It is an amazing thing to hear. Now all they have to do its find them.

And so with this great news I encourage you all to join me and if you haven't already turn your porch lights on. Wear something pink. If your religious, pray. If not, then send good vibes toward the people searching for the girls that they find them quickly and that they are indeed alive.

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Get Elizabeth and Lyric home safe

Okay y'all it's been a while I know, but I've got a huge favor to ask of you. I need you to turn your porch lights on during the night.

Why you may ask? Well on Friday afternoon two little girl Elizabeth,8 and Lyric,10 went missing from a town over from where I live, and need to be found. And I know that I've got readers from all over the world and you're probably thinking that you can't help. But guess what, you can. By leaving the porch light on at night it is a sign of hope that these to girls will be found and come home safe. Its something that a lot of people are doing so jump on and help give hope to these two families. Don't have a porch light then leave a lamp or candle in the window. (but for safety reasons I suggest a fake candle so no one burns their house down) its a pretty simple task. Even if its one night or every night it still means something. Sooo, I'll stop rambling on about lights and just say THANK YOU in advance to every one that will take part in this simple task. Even I have my light on, so join in and again Thank you all.

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I Feel Like I'm Being Spoon-Fed Excuses...

Well from the title of this blog, ya'll know I'm one pissed chic. That is a very true statement. I know I had mentioned I had my very first date about a month ago and I thought everything was great between us and I was totally wrong. I could have sworn that the seeing the guys from my past in that 24 hour period was a sign to me not to screw this up with this guy but oh gosh was I wrong. It was more like a warning that this guy is a total dousche bag and to stay the hell away. But, of course I didn't get that message and I got screwed over by yet another guy.

I never really realized how niave I actually was until this guy who I'll just say is Bob (because I don't to say this guy, that guy every time I want to insert his name in.) started feeding me excuse after excuse about why we couldn't hang out after the dinner date thing. I truly just wanted to believe him so badly because I honestly thought that he might like me. Wow, I sound really dumb right now but seriously thats how I felt. I mean to be honest I was on my best "behavior" when he and I went out. I'm to the point now where I actually am disgusted with myself because I let this "Bob" lie to me for so long. And, I'm sure some of you are probably thinking how do I know he's lying. Well lets just say not only are his excuses horrible, I know for a fact that right now he is on the site where he messaged me and you don't get on there unless you've given up on the person your talking to.

The first excuse was food posioning and since I can totally see that happening I let it slide, but I don't think that it normally lasts 5 days. And if someone reading this knows anything about food posioning at all just please let me know, can it really last that long?

The second excuse was that he was going to visit his dad now that too is understandable, but honestly he had already set up a date thing with me. Really, tell me when you set it up that you might have to go out of town its not that hard. Don't tell me an hour before we were supposta meet, because not only is that fishy behavior. You just ruined my whole day, by 1. letting me get ready to go out with you, 2. Not giving me time to make other plans and now giving me no choice but to sit at home and watch shitty movies all night long.

Third excuse, " I forgot". I don't think you forgot "Bob". Because, I asked on a Wednsday, reminded you Thursday, and waited all day for a text on Friday. Granted, the fact that you were going to get reschedualed on that time because I had to drive to Dubuque that day. But, if I was given an ample amount of time may have been able to hang out before I left.

And,the fourth and final, last straw excuse I got from Mr. Bob was about something I thought would be nice for us to do together. A benefit for a guy I work with because his wife and son both have cancer. I made sure that I gave him plenty of time to clear out his schedule so that after a month after the first "date" we could finally get to hang again. I asked him on Tuesday or Wednsday I can't remember which, and the benefit was today(Saturday). He sounded interested and I was glad. If we wasn't I would've been more than happy to go to a movie or something. I mean some great movies came out yesterday! So, today when I texted him to see if he was coming he said no that he was in some town about an hour away and he didn't know when he'd be back. Now if this is true then great, but after all these other excuses I find it very hard to believe that it is.

I'm not the devil and I wouldn't have hurt him if he said that he had an awful time on the dinner date we had  and would rather not hang out anymore. That's fine. But don't string me along, I don't deserve it and I'm sure that there are plenty of guys out there willing to have a great girl like me on their arm. I mean I'm funny, pretty, smart, full of life, and a total goofball that knows how to be serious. Do I have flaws? YES!! Everyone does even YOU. You may not think so but guess what you're wrong. Mine are a little more noticable than some but don't take what you see and just assume or jump to conclusions about who I am. There is more to me than meets the eye. I'm definately not one of those whorey little slut bags that walk around with my tits hanging out for every Tom, Dick, and Harry to see. Which is what a lot of guys like. So if how I act and how I dress or whatever it is that you don't like then to damn bad. I am who I am and that is who I'll be 'til the day I die.

 *** Thank You to everyone that reads this and puts up with these vent posts. I hope you may learn something.


Say what you want, when you want. But I encourage you all to think before you speak or write. Even though it may not look like I do a lot of the time, I have thought about everything I wrote, before I even write it.***


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:)

Life lately for me has been hectic and I just haven't had time to blog. All I can say to that is I'm sorry. What has kept me from blogging are the little things. I work more hours than I can count or at least thats how I feel.
I don't even really remember the last time I filled ya'll in on what's goingon in my life so I'll just go with the flow and fill you in on what I remember.

 First thing first.. Congratulations to Joey Logano the #20 Home Depot driver. He won at Pocono and it was the first race he won fair and square no rain delay. I am so proud of him and his team. Even though I didn't get to see him win, when I found out I literally started jumping for joy.

  Next up, my cousin Kati came to visit just last week and unfortunately I had to work on one of the days she was here we still managed to have a total blast like we always do when we're together. We been best friends since we were toddlers and probably will be for the rest of our lives. While she was here we went out to a small town and went to a fair. We went for a soccer derby and she experienced her first Iowa storm which to me was really funny. Then after that was the day I worked and I let her borrow my car, I thought she would hate driving but oh gosh was I wrong she wanted to keep it!!!  The next day she had to go back to the other town she was going to stay in with another friend that lives in Iowa and I took it upon myself to take her there. But did I get to drive her up there? NO WAY!! She had to drive which was fine with me. As we drove we listened to Disney songs just like we did when we were kids.

And last but not least, for abouth the last month or so my ankle would just swell up and go away but as soon as I would wake the pain would just start again. It got to the point were I couldn't take the pain anymore and ended up going to the hospital and getting x-rays because I seriously thought my foot was broken. It ended up being just a sprain and they gave me an aircast that I have to wear and goodness does that thing just irritate my leg and with the heat its just makes it worse. but I can't wait for two weeks when I can stop wearing the torture device.

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Can you say WEIRD??

Gosh I can't believe its been a whole week since I posted. Time flies when your having fun or just trying to keep your head from exploding from the neck because of dumb stuff. This week has been filled to the brim with just so much and I'm so psyched to share the juicy detail, so here goes nothing...

So we all know that there are two guys that I've been "talking" to or maybe that's just something I think I mentioned but never actually did. But anyways, they both appeared mid to late May and I have been having the worst time trying to choose which one would be the better fit into my life and I think I wrote about this last time but can I just say between then and now I have managed a complete 180. At first I was going with the guy from about a hour away and was determined to make that work but the other just kinda snuck up on me. He just out of the blue asked me to hang out. Of course I think that as in any other situation its important to give every option an even chance so I agreed. The first time we met up was a total disaster and I take full responsibility for that and I'm leaving it at that. So after the disaster I decided that even though I was holding out that I would just give this guy another shot so that it was fair when I made my decision. So I asked him if he wanted to hang out on Friday. He said yes and we made plans to go to a really great cupcake place then out to dinner.

Unfortunately the cupcake place closed like 10 minutes before we got there so we just went straight to dinner. It was totally not what I was expecting at all. There was no long pauses and I felt really comfortable talking to him. Which was awesome because all the way there I had the worst feeling in the pit of my stomach and felt that this wasn't what I wanted. I thought I might have ruined it though when I started talking about all the foods you can actually find animal parts in and was like a little embarrassed but it wasn't that bad he took that lightly and the rest of the meal went off without any more dead animal talk thankfully. I was glad that he was genuinely interested in what I had to say and didn't just pretend to care.

After dinner we parted ways and I went home, and this is were the strange sets in. My sister wanted ice cream from Dairy Queen so I decided I would be a nice sister and take her. Also. I was craving a Blizzard so that was a plus side to this arrangement for me too. I took her to the one down town and they only accept cash so I had to drive to the one all the way across town to the one that I go to frequently.We were in the drive-thru and I'm in front of the speaker machine and a voice comes over it and for a second I freeze. I know that voice its so familiar to me and at that second I would've put money on who was on the other end taking the order. Sure enough that voice was attached to the exact person I knew it would be. The guy I had a total crush on my Senior year of high school. I just thought it was funny that he would be the one to be there taking the order after the great time I had just had and it was just a coincidence. So I really wasn't that phased by the whole thing I just got the ice cream had a decent how have you been I haven't seen you in a year type conversation and went on my merry way. I made a last second decision to go a different way home than I normally do when I leave there. I did a backtrack type deal and as I was headed to where I needed to turn and saw a sign for a garage sale and to most of you that is no big deal. But to me this address meant something I'd been there a few years back on Halloween probably my sophmore year of high school and my sister went up to the door and knocked the person that answered was the guy from my world history class(which was usually set aside for juniors and seniors, but since I moved that year and the school I was going to before that had no open spots in a freshman course I was stuck in a sophmore one. So that year I was going to class with the older kids that were like 18 and I was only 14.) Needless to say the fact that I just a little giddy schoolgirl back then I crushed hard on this one guy. And, with that one I never hid the fact that I liked him it was out there in the open for everyone to see. Although, I'm not sure he ever realized it. Those two things were just weird to see on the same night that I had my first "date" type of event. The guys that involved in those two things were a big part of how I deal with guys I talk to now. But I just pushed it aside as something weird and was attempting to move on.

Until today...
I worked today and it was a pretty normal day. It was about 15 minutes before my shift was up and I had a customer come through my line I took one look at him and I knew exactly who he was. The very first guy I ever thought about being in a relationship with, well it wasn't him standing there but it was his father. And at that exact second I knew that those three things happening so close after that dinner was no mere coincidence it was fate. Now I don't know what you all as my readers think about all the whole things happen for a reason thing. But I myself believe whole-heartedly in it and I know that these events were the universe telling to wake up smell the coffee, realize your past mistakes and don't you dare make them again. So, I think I'm going to side with the universe on this one and actually see this through and not cut it off like I have in the past when I got scared or bored.(Not bored with this guy, just a little scared.) I'm going to try and see this through and hopefully I end up a happy camper in the end.


F.Y.I. The other guy that I was talking to lets just say I asked him if he was still interested in meeting up he said yeah and I haven't heard from him since. That was two and a half weeks ago. Thank God I made the decision I did or I think I would've been waiting on someone who obviously isn't interested in me and may have passed up someone who actually might be.



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What I've learned when it comes to what you want...

Long time since I posted. I just want you all to know that I've been working a lot and really haven't had much time to write. But I finally got some time and I'm using it to let you all know that life right now is a little bit complicated for me. While, this is something I totally brought on myself and thought for awhile that this might actually be what I wanted, the thing is that now that I have what I wanted I'm not enjoying this like I planned.

Growing up I was the shy social butterfly if that makes any sense. I had my little group of friends and we did our thing. When it came down to it most of the time we liked the same guy and wow did that cause ruffles. Most if not all the time, the alpha female personality (not me) would get the attention we all wanted. That left me kinda hurt and I tended to struggle with that self image thing. Thankfully today that has faded and only comes back every once in a while. So needless to say it got to the point where all I wanted was the attention that my friends got from guys. I never did anything drastic and most of the time faded to the background. I watched my friends get the guys every time and patiently waited my turn.

Waited all through middle school and high school. Nothing ever happened now, all of a sudden it's like I have attention coming from every direction. At first I was so excited and was telling all my friends that I had finally started what they like to call "talking" to guys then more guys showed interest. It started getting really old really fast. 
And. Now that I think I finally found one that will work well with the kind of relationship I want and mesh with my family and get along with my friends, understand my views, and doesn't mind the lifestyle I choose to live (vegetarian). All these boys (which is exactly what they are) start to show interest. I steer them away but they just don't get it.
So I guess after this whole let out of emotions. What I want to get across is that it's important to go after what you want and that letting people get in the way is not the best thing. If they happen to have the spotlight a lot and you can't seem to get a hold of it, create your own. It's not a simple task but try because it's important for everyone to shine you'll feel better about you. I don't care if it's with boys or school or whatever else there is in this world. Don't let what happen to me happen to you. But, also realize that getting what you what isn't always a good thing. So, I hope my venting and what I've learned can help you.

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Clark Cup Finals

You know I never thought I'd have the guts to do what I'm doing right at this very second. Actually writing my blog while watching a game.
What I'm seeing right now is amazing. with about ten minutes left in the 1st and the Hawks goalie is doing a wonderful job. The Gamblers are coming after him all they've got and right now he still hasn't let a puck past him. and they just keep coming shot after shot just creating what i hate to call wonderful chances and that just saddens me. Because, from what I'm seeing the Hawks need to keep a hold of the puck if they want a chance at this cup. So, I'm going too watch a little more without writing and give more detail in the intermission.


Since the fact that I was just taking notes while watching the game this is what I came up with and its very raw, And by doing this I'm letting you into my head while I watch a game. A huge game, one that I don't think I'll forget. So from the bloggers thoughts to the screen, my thoughts on the first period of this final game:
7:30 close shot GB almost scored
shots on goal getting better for the Hawks
Green Bay scores at 16:04 in the first. dishearting feeling. I felt my stomach drop but not losing hope
Shots on Goal- 12GB 5 WAT.. Waterloo needs to pick this up. Shots on goal bring scores and more shots means more chances to score
Idiot gambler knocked Scott MacDonald in the back of the head. No penalty, don't know if that is because what I saw was wrong or if the refs just not seeing Gamblers penalties.
Camarata is causing himself trouble and wouldn't be surprised if he got a penalty for not controlling his temper.

Inner thought process during the first intermission interview:
Psychology really is that what you want to bring up with such a negative nelly as P.K. Honestly I think that's a big mistake, mister. I know psychology and that is not something that needs to be dicussed during such a huge game as this. Bring it up after. Let the positive chi flow and that is not the way to get that. You're plugging up the chi!!!

Second Period notes and reactions:
 Here we go second period. Phantom of the Opera music
Williams left the net thats what got them in trouble the last time.  STAY IN THE NET STEPHON!!!!
Great save almost thought the Gamblers scored again but he squeezed the pads together and kept it out
Hawks aren't keeping the puck long enough. Get a hold of that puck
oh crap MacDonald you were so close. Good job at getting Mckay down.
So close again 13:30 good shot and a rebound thought they could've had that
WE SCORED *SCREAM* Yes its tied.. ahhhh awesome :) scored by-
ugh that kid... GB scored Sam Hare so its 2-1 Green Bay
Gamblers thought they scored again and I could tell there was no goal and I'm not even there
but at 6:14 they actully did

P.K. I hate to say this but put Eamon in NOW!!!

 This period was just horrible. The Gamblers scored and then the Hawks scored. Not to long after that the Gamblers started to celebrate a goal they didn't score. But, it didn't take long after that to actually score.. I guess I should explain that expression I used when I said "ugh that kid" Well while there was a pause in the game they asked a kid who he thought would score the next goal for the Gamblers and the kid said that #10 Sam Hare would score and not even a minute later Hare scored and that is the basic explaination of my expression of feeling.

The Gamblers scored one more in the third and Jamie Hill scored in the third as well, but its too late.
So the Gamblers won the Clark Cup 5-2.
I have a crushing feeling the Hawks have basically let the cup slip out of their hands. Its such an overwhelming disappointing feeling. I can't believe this. My heart is broken I felt like they could really win this. The fact that Green Bay only had one penalty the whole game made no sense when I saw plenty of them. All I can say right now is Congrats Black Hawks on the great season and I believed in you the whole way through this. I am soo proud of you all and so are so many other of your fans.

This is the end of tonights blog and now I'm going to clean my car and take out some frustrations on something I'm not sure of yet.


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May 17th happenings

Well I can honestly say that today was an interesting day.

I woke up this morning half expecting there to be banging and pounding from outside. Since we are having the roof on the house redone. But, no. No noise nothing at all but some birds chirping outside. Which is nothing to complain about.

I had to work today and since that wasn't until four, I decided that there were some things I'd like to get done since I didn't really have anything to do. I had to wash my stained Black Hawks jersey for the game tomorrow since there is a white out and that was my top priority of the day. I knew that the stains were from mustard so I did what my mom would of done and applied Dawn dish soap right on the stains. While I let that set in and do its magic, I gave myself a much needed pedi. I put the jersey in the wash and decided to wait for the cycle to complete that way it wouldn't sit in the washer. I did my hair and make-up for work. hung the jersey up to dry then headed off to work.

Where I work has to be one of the most interesting places to work, and its not just because its retail either. The people I work with are like a very dysfunctional family that somehow make everything work and rock at what we do. We share a lot with each other and advice seems to be one of our biggest strong suits. So today, when I got a nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach my work family was there to help me out. This feeling, is what I'll refer to as the "Almost, Coulda, Shoulda, Date that needs to happen soon" feeling. I've been "talking" to a guy for what I think is an ample amount of time. We have discussed meeting a few times and when it comes to things of this nature I am a very impatient person. He lives about an hour away which is decent compared to some of the other contacts I have received. (If I like you and you contact me through the Internet and after a certain amount of time if you haven't failed what I call the beautiful test and haven't managed to bore me, which is not an easy task. Then I feel that I can then make a further evaluation as to whether or not a face to face meeting would be appropriate.) In this case I think it to be very appropriate. I feel he has potential to be a good choice for a friend or maybe more if the comfort level is there.
So, basically what I was told was to grow some balls, don't beat around the bush, be direct, and to calm myself down. I did exactly three out of the four on that list with some help and encouragement but, was very kindly shot down for this weekend because he had already made plans.

The funny thing was that he actually asked if I was going to the hockey game(s) this weekend and, I was surprised. As a rational person I don't expect anyone to go and look things up so that they know whats going on in the town in which I live. It's just too complicated and most guys don't pay that much attention to the tiny details like that. There are many ways to prove that you care about what the person you're talking to is passionate about or interested in, or just to show you care in general. But this was not something I ever expected. It caught me off gaurd and actually made me smile the ear to ear smile that has been missing from my face for awhile. But even better than that, I got the confirmation that in the near future I will get to meet this guy. Excited is a word that may be to small for the feeling I have right now, elated may be a better term. That was basically my day. I thought that since I couldn't sleep and this is what was on my mind, I would share it with you. Hope you find my day as good as how I lived it.


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What Makes Me, Bre

Today I was thinking about what to write and I thought... You know there has to be some of you that I don't know and you all don't know me. So I thought I'd post a little getting to know me type thing. So here goes nothing.

There are so many things that make up me I don't even  really know where to start. So, well, I'm Bre, Bri, or Briana depending my mood and the day of the week, or who you're speaking to. I'm eighteen, and my dream job is to be an event planner. I work in retail right now and sometimes don't understand how people can do that job. Its so draining.


I have a sister that can be a pain in the be-hind but I truly love her to pieces.

 I have two very loving and over protective parents that always have the best for me in mind and I love them for that even if it can be annoying at times.

I have two pets and my sister has three.

There's Charlie and he's my dog who happens to be 16 or 17 years old. You know the pet that has been there for everything. Partners in crime and my first sibling. He's my brother even if he walks on four legs and has fur. We've both changed a lot over the years as you can tell. I've grown up and somehow he's managed to look younger.

Baja my precious baby, who is a cavy(guinea pig), she's a little over a year old now and is just a little stinker. She's named after the female lead in the movie Never Back Down, Baja Miller. Not the Baja burger or Baja, California.

There's Rhoady who is a Russian Tortoise who is named after the state flower of West Virginia.

Sasha who is my sister's American Tan cavy. She is so annoying but you can't help but love her because she sometimes looks like a puppy. And last but not least is Weirdo the fish, who is quite a miraculous pet. Somehow he managed to survive an eight hour trip home from my grandma's house to my house in a cooler in our family's car.

Other than the people that are my family and my pets there is a lot of other stuff about me that is interesting and informative. Like for instance:

My zodiac sign is Virgo. I tend to think that the whole astrology thing is actually something that has a place in everyday life. I read my horoscope and my personality does have some of the characteristics of a Virgo. But, its not something I live my life by.





I am a forever fan of Harry Potter. He is so amazing and I absolutely love J.K. Rowling. A huge thank you to her for writing such wonderful material. I wish that there were more of them. But, I'm greatful that she started Pottermore, it enables us fans to keep living in the legacy of the famous boy who lived just a little longer. I am unfortunately still waiting for my acceptance letter to Hogwarts and will wait for it for the rest of my days until it arrives. Because unfortunatley the electronic letter through Pottermore just doesn't cut it for me. I want the real parchment and the wax seal and everything that goes with it.


I'm a vegetarian- for about five months now (YAY ME!!)

I have bad habits:
- I bite my nails when I get nervous
- On most days of the week I drink 2 Full Throttle Energy Drinks (only in the black can)
- And there's one more that will forever remain a secret. Sorry

 I have passions:
- I love to watch sports (especially hockey, football, and Nascar)
- I draw
-I enjoy singing

I watch television and my favorite things to watch besides sports and sports related stuff(sportscenter, NascarNow) are:
-Bones
-One Tree Hill
-Brothers & Sisters (even though they quit making new seasons)
- 7th Heaven( another old one I have on DVDs)
-Everwood
- Army Wives
- Supernatural
- Charmed



When it comes to movies I like:
- Harry Potter
-The Invisible
- A Walk to Remember
-Never Back Down
- Hunger Games
-Twilight
-The Ultimate Gift
-Titanic
-Stick It
-Beastly
-The Notebook
- 50 First Dates


I absolutely love music.  My favorite band are:

- Hot Chelle Rae (I actually met them) -Sugarland
- Boys Like Girls                                - The Band Perry
- Panic! At the Disco                           - Brooks and Dunn
- Fall Out Boy                                      - Lonestar
- Green Day                                          - Lady Antebellum
 - Black Eyed Peas                                - Dixie Chicks
 - My Chemical Romance                      - Gloriana



Solo Artists I like are:
- Katy Perry                                               - Carrie Underwood
- Cary Rae Jepsen                                      - Miranda Lambert
- Jesse McCartney                                      - Kellie Pickler
-Christina Perri                                           - Kenny Chesney
- November Blessing



I love to read. Its sort of my thing when I'm stressed and I'm a really quick reader too which is cool because I can get through a few books a week if they are a decent size. My favorite books are:
- Harry Potter
-Hunger Games
- Any Lurlene McDaniels book
-Twilight
- Vampire Kisses novels
-Perfect Chemistry and the books that follow
- The Paradise books
-13 Reasons Why ( this book is amazing and I think everyone should read it)








My Favorite Sports teams and atheletes are:
- Saint Louis Blues (hockey)             - T.J. Oshie

- New York Jets(football)                  - Antonio Cramartie

-Waterloo Black Hawks (USHL hockey)

- Joey Logano(#20 Home Depot Toyota driver for Joe Gibbs Racing)








There is just one last thing I want to tell you about me and that is who my heroes and role models are:

- My Mom
- My Grandma

- My Grandpa (Pap)

So thats all I can come up with for a getting to know me. I hope you enjoy. There are so many other things that make me, me but they are to complex to put in such a general type of post. I plan to hit those things in later posts and really can't wait to write them.

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Update...

You know that I've been thinking really hard about what I should write about. I thought that maybe a lot of the topics I came up with have been  over discussed and would just be some thing y'all wouldn't enjoy and I certainly don't want to be known as the hockey commentator because that's just not who I am, even though hockey is a giant part of my life and I am very passionate about it.

So I came up with something that will sort of be a series of posts and they may or may not be interesting to you. In this series I plan to let you into my brain and share as many things as I possibly can. It will sort of be like the post I did on friends. Just letting you in on my thoughts on certain subjects in a wide variety of subject matter. My thoughts on anything from love to a movie I may have watched that day something simple so that I can get posts out more often. I hope to have this first set out by this evening or early tomorrow morning.

This is something I want you as my readers to be involved in so any ideas that you have I would encourage you to let me know and I will write about it. I take anything you all say very seriously and want to hear from you. Feedback is what I look forward to and has not been something I've been getting a lot of. So, let me know how I'm doing. Keep watching for posts I've been working diligently on a getting to know the blogger post that I can't wait to finish. I think it will be something that will be insightful to you all and may let you know who I am and what makes me, Me.
        
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Watch out Gamblers here come the Hawks

Slice and Dice was going to the title of this post but that changed quickly after I found the title swimming in my head.

6-2 win baby. The Waterloo Black Hawks are going to the Clark Cup finals. This game was freaking amazing that's the only way to explain it.

Game starts and its off to the races for the Hawks. 13:16 left on the clock and the Stars Mike McKnee gets a penalty for cross checking. Power play. Power play ends and the Hawks score. Alex Barron puts the Hawks on the the board with help from A.J. Michaelson and Max Edson. Not even ten seconds later the Hawks go shorthanded when Edson goes the box for two minutes after high-sticking a Stars player. Stars were unable to capitalize on their power play. Play continued and Lincoln was given two more penalties(2 minute roughing and 2 minute hooking) and the Hawks failed to score with both opportunities. With only about a minute and a half left the Hawks have possession in front of the Stars net and Jamie Hill hits the puck so that it went through the goalie's legs and just trickled past the line into the net. A slow-motion replay of this goal would be perfect for a highlight reel to be honest. No scoring for either side in the rest of the first period. So, the Hawks head to the locker room with the lead again.

Second period starts and the Hawks take the puck. 35 seconds in and SCORE. Jamie Hill again with help from Aaron Pearce and Mitch Witek. A slashing penalty sends the Stars Friebergs to the box for two minutes. No score this power play. About three minutes later the whistle blows after a Stars player knocked the puck behind Williams with either his hand or a high stick, and there is a mass confusion in front of  the Waterloo net a swarm of players in both uniforms and the refs trying to break them up. Hooked together with a ref attached to each player is Waterloo's captain Aaron Pearce and Lincoln's Dominik Shine. The refs managed to break them apart and send them both to the penalty box for roughing. The Stars players that were left on the ice each looked to have a Hawk in their grasp. Mike McKnee was also put in the box for roughing at the same time as Shine and #10 Will Suter was sent off ice after receiving a 10 minute misconduct for Abuse of an Official which probably means he punched a ref or linesmen. Needless to say the goal didn't count. The penalties fade off the clock and no scoring for either side. Paul LaDue 2 minute holding penalty at 11:24. This power play seemed to be okay when... Ian McCoshen scores with Jamie Hill and Max Edson getting credit for the assists.Twenty seconds later Scott MacDonald for Waterloo and Zach Frye receive offsetting delay of game penalties. James Hanson took a visit to the sin bin at 15:57 in the second and the Hawks finish the second up four.

Third period starts and play starts to heat up for the Stars because as you can imagine they can feel the clock ticking on the chance to make it to the finals and they finally make it past Stephon Williams at 2:33 and 11:51 Kevin Roy scoring both goals. Taylor Camarata tallies the fifth goal with help from Jamie Hill. After the goal was scored Jimmy McGoarty was penalized for abuse of an officials and given a two minutes in the bin. Josh Nenedal scored the last goal of the game with that power play opportunity. Play continued and with only about a minute of play left Waterloo's Vladislav Lysenko was given a roughing penalty, and even after the refs had broken him and the other guy Brad Hawkinson apart Vladislav still continued after the guy so much so that one of the refs just escorted him of the ice instead of sending him to the penalty box. Lincoln's Matt Friese was sent off for a charging penalty and Dominik Shine received two penalties 2 minute roughing and a 10 minute unsportsmanlike conduct to end the game. After the teams shook hands the goalies did the celebratory chest bump and the Hawks gathered around the emblem in the center of the rink. The crowd was going wild the whole entire time. And to end the night the announcement of the three stars of the game and that the Hawks will play Green Bay in the finals.

Three Stars of the Game 1. Jamie Hill 2. Stephon Williams 3. Max Edson And as an added bonus to this wonderful win, it was also the Hawks 15th straight home game win!!!! wooh-whooo!!!!

Can You Say Shutout?

Congratulations Black Hawks!!! Saturday night's game by far was the best game I've seen out of the Hawks in a while. A 5-0 win against the Lincoln Stars and only one win away from being in the Clark Cup finals.

This game I have to say was very interesting. I can't say for sure because I was unable to see the game from Friday, but I think the Hawks and Stars must have had a very bad ending to there meeting on the Stars ice. From the start of the game you could tell the Hawks were not happy at all. They seemed more aggressive than normal. Which is something I like to see in a game. It tells me they still haven't lost the spark they need to win this cup.

The first period was kinda a blur to me so this is what I remember:

-The Stars goalie got a tripping penalty
-Hawks go on the power play
-Hawks Score (Ryan Papa. w/assists from Aaron Pearce & Ian McCoshen)
-Hawks manage to keep the puck for what seemed like a minute and a half resulting in a goal from Mitch Witek
-Ryan Papa sneaks one in past the goalie right before the 1st period ends.

Now that I was able to get my system back into the spirit of the game the second and third period are much more clear to me and can be represented as the first period should but my mind could not hold.

The Hawks came back out on the ice and I could tell they were ready to get going again. The Stars not so much. Switching out their goalie showed the desperation to get on the board. Because, in my opinion the goalie is the person who holds the teams spirit and drive right in the palm of their hand and what I think the Stars realized then was just that or maybe they just couldn't take getting crushed by the Hawks who compared to them is a  much younger team which shows in the size of some of the guys.
The second period started and not long after the scrums began. Two minutes in and a penalty was handed out for each of the teams for delay of game. Then, Mitch Witek tallied his second goal of the night 8 minutes into the second period. After the goal, the Stars became desperate. They started to get aggressive. Every time the whistle would blow they would push and shove and the refs would have to use what looked like more than the usual strength to break the guys apart. This continued for the rest of the period and even the game. With about four minutes left I was watching quite intently and all of the fans went wild.  A Hawk player had gone down and my eyes jetted straight to the ref and I waited for his arm to go up. It seemed like it took longer than it should have then the whistle blows because if my memory is correct Ian McCoshen went after the guy that the crowd was screaming about. I finally figured out that it was because the Stars player(Mike McKnee) had cross checked a Hawks player, which he received a major for. 5 whole minutes for the Hawks to score as many times as they could and a 10 minute misconduct. Lincoln was given two more penalties before the second period was over and would start the third with only three players on the ice.
Even with the five on three scenario to start the third the Hawks were unable to score. Hawks given a penalty which was killed off very nicely. Then another. givenn the circumstances of this penalty the Stars pulled their goalie which gave them six skaters compared to the four the Hawks had. I thought that this was when the Stars would score if they wanted to really get on the board. That didn't happen and after the penalty had been killed the Hawks got posession and Tyler Zepeda scored an emptynet goal with the help of A.J. Michaelson and Mitch Witek. The period ended with no more scores from either team, but Waterloo had one more penalty and Lincoln two. 5-0 win and up 2-1 in the series if the Hawks win tonight they will win the series and to the final for the Clark Cup. Game tonight and I'll be there.

Three Stars of the Game

1. Stephon Williams

2. Mitch Witek

3. Ryan Papa

Avery's Smile

I ran across Avery's Bucket List yesterday and for the first time became aware of the genetic condition of SMA(Spinal Muscular Atrophy). I must say that this has to be the saddest thing I've heard in a long time and I am bummed that I did not find this sooner.

The blog is very interesting to read and is something that needs awareness brought to it. If the last thing we learn from this little precious life is that everyday matters and you never know what is going to happen. Take every breath like its your last and live your life to the fullest. Because, that is what Avery did with the help of her parents and the rest of  her family.

So as I was perusing the sight I saw a lot of  pictures of this little baby and even though her body was basically shutting down you never saw it on her face all that was there was the most beautiful smile and her smile brought a smile to my face and it stayed there almost all day because of this courageous family and the fact that despite this terrible diagnosis they never let that bring them down.

My advice to you all today is that if you haven't already go and visit Avery's Bucket List (http://averycan.blogspot.com/)t and read her story and her fight against this terrible condition.

And on the days where you just feel terrible I encourage you all to remember Avery's smile and the battle that she had to endure. Then smile, whether its because you feel lucky that you and your family have not been affect by SMA or any other terrible things that are out there in the world, or just because you know that no matter what there is a bright spot in everyday all you have to do is find it.


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That's What Friends are For(Ever)...

When do you realize that a friendship is one the most precious things one person can have? Well for me that was today.


My friends mean so much to me. Each one is so unique and special. They can all make me laugh but each one in their own way. Three or four, I'm close with most and that is something I can be grateful for. Each one shares a passion of mine and understand me so well. Cheer me up when I'm sad. Don't get too upset when I get annoyed or mad and might show it toward them, they just listen and I appreciate that instead of giving me what I gave them.

So, just in case any of you are reading this and you know who you are...
 Thank You so much for all you do. I really appreciate you even though I don't always show it. The memmories that I have with you all will stay with me for a long time to come. The laughs, the tears, the great, and the bad. Some of you I've only know a few months, the others a couple years or even my whole life.

A.K.- Thanks for all the great times. Thanks for letting me stay at your house the time I skipped. For watching out for me when it came to guys and on New Years Eve. You are like a big sister to me and even though you don't always have the answers to my dumb questions I'm glad you are there to talk to.

S.-  You are the only friend I have left from high school. I'm so glad that you and I are friends don't know who I'd have to talk about hockey and guys with if it weren't for you. I share so much with you and you somehow manage to keep most of it straight. Which amazes me. Thanks. oh and btw M.A.I.S.Y. :)

K.- You are my family. We have so much crap in our past and so much to our future. Cousin I can't wait for what is in store for us. Your stuck with me for the rest of time and some how no matter how much we bicker and fight you are there and ready to listen. I tell you a lot. Can't wait to use the speech I wrote for my speech final junior year at your wedding lol (did you know about that?)

T.- Thanks for all you do. You kept me straight at work and weren't afraid to tell me when I was being a total B*tch. Your random singing(off-key) and jokes made me laugh and I feel like I could tell you anything(but I don't. Be happy for that). We kept the front-end going most days and I can't wait for you to get back to work in the fall. Oh and just in case you forgot... YOU OWE ME A GAME OF LASER TAG!!!!

So readers of mine. Think about who your grateful to have as your friends and let them know because they deserve it. We all do so much for eachother and can forget how much we mean to one another because we're there for eachother all day everyday. We may forget and take their being there for granted and that is something we should never do.

                                                             Until Next Time

And They're Moving on...

Congratulations!!! To my favorite team in the USHL(United States Hockey League). You're moving on to round three in the chase to the Clark Cup and I'm just bursting with pride. Not just me but all of us fans that are behind you. And to witness this accomplishment has been a pleasure and we can't wait to see how far you guys can get. Although I missed the games against the Tri-City Storm, I was able to attend both of the games against the Omaha Lancers and I was impressed with what I saw both days.


Since I recapped last night's game in the blog I posted last night I'll just skip that and go straight to tonight's game. I was so excited I didn't have my sister attached to my hip this time because I knew I'd get to actually let my full attention be absorbed by the game. As the game started I could just feel the great vibes in the atmosphere and I was almost certain that this was going to be a game to remember. The puck dropped and it didn't seem that long after that the Lancers score and the Hawks fans in the arena were not happy to see their team go down by one so early on (deflated almost). Play continued, I thought maybe we would end the period down and a goose egg on the scoreboard but no... almost the end of the period and my favorite defense men put the Hawks on the board by putting one in the back of the net over the left arm of the Lancers goalie.(Far and Fast) Maybe not even one minute later and the captain of the Hawks put one right past the goalie again and this was where I knew it was okay to finally catch my breath again. The Hawks headed to the locker room with the lead. 17 minutes later.... Second period started with a desperate kind of pace for the Lancers. Scraps started and penalties were given out. Hawks were on the Powerplay when BAM!! Favorite D-man comes through again with a PP goal. (INSERT WILD CROWD HERE) A bigger explosion from the crowd than the first two goals, or at least in my opinion, but maybe that's just because I was cheering so loud. Then back to locker room again still in the lead. Another 17 minutes... Third period begins and I could kinda tell the Hawks were comfortable with the cushion they had because it seemed between the second and third period the demeanor of the team had changed almost to where they were just trying to keep the lead that they had and being more aggressive toward the other team so they didn't have the puck as much. Periods ALMOST over and we get a penalty and go shorthanded. The Lancers pull the goalie so they have six skaters on ice. Penalty is just about over when a Hawk player winds up and takes a shot so close you can hear the TING the puck makes as it hits the post. Then a face-off and the Hawks take possession give the puck to the captain and.... HE SCORES! A nice empty-netter. Everyone kinda knows by now there's really not enough time to come up with a tie game so basically it's over, the Hawks have won the game. But, does that stop them from trying to score again NO. #18 Mike Huntebrinker gets the puck just in between the goalie's legs and we scored again. So if you lost track my readers the Hawks beat the Lancers 5-1 tonight and that is where the pride is beaming from. Just take this still as my example:

Three Stars of the game:

1) #27 Aaron Pearce(Captain/ a friend's favorite player ;P)

2) #3 Ian McCoshen (Assistant Captain/ Yours Truly's favorite defense man)

3) #1 Stephon Willams (goalie/ Happy B-day)

And one last thing for this evenings post before I say goodnight. Thank you to a very good friend of mine for pointing out that my all-time favorite Waterloo Black Hawks defense man and all around favorite player (all the same person btw) was at the game tonight. It made my night and maybe even my weekend! :)

                                                                            Until Next Time  

April 27th happenings

Since there's not big title attached to this one don't be alarmed this is due to the fact that I don't have any huge topics I have to get off my chest or anything today. Which is usually where the titles come in at. But anyways enough of my babbling on about titles and onto what happened to me today.

Since today is Friday I'm sure most of you had some planned activity or a last minute idea, since it's one of the worst things not to have plans on a Friday night. I, too, was lucky enough to have the day off work to relax and just enjoy my day. I even made plans for my evening and that of late has been a rarity. This wonderful evening of mine was spent doing one of the many things I enjoy and that is watching a great hockey game. (As my blog continues you may find that there will be two things I will discuss often and they are NASCAR and hockey. So fair warning.) I could go into great detail and tell you everything that I remember, but for my readers that do not understand nor like this sport I shall spare you and just say... Congratulations Waterloo Blackhawks on an impressing win against the Lancers this evening. It was an amazing game, filled with a few scraps that is something that is fun to watch but I do not encourage at all unless necessary. 4 wonderful goals by the Hawks and 2 scored by the Lancers. The ending of tonight's game was just something that you had to see to really get the hilarity of but I will do my best to describe it since I didn't get a video...
For those unfamiliar with hockey it is a tradition to announce at the end of every game the three stars or the players that performed the best during the game. Tonight the Hawks three stars were: our goalie, and two of the goal scorers. When they announced the goalie's name he came out on the ice to throw a shirt and as the crowd was cheering for him, he started to dance. Which I must say was the funniest thing I've seen at a game in a while. Then second star came out to throw his shirt and missed the glass that protects the fans in the audience from getting hit with pucks. The shirt ended up in the home teams bench area so he climbed over the barrier and threw the shirt backward over the glass which is very original and something I'd never seen in my four years going to Hawks games. Even though I may have missed the perfect video moments of the game, I managed to get some stills that I'll include and use to conclude this evenings blog.

                                                                      Until Next Time

Final score

Waterloo Blackhawks celebrate a Playoff win!

End of the game tradition at least in the 'Loo